wow----has it been a long time since I have written or what? A great deal has happened following my last post, mainly the death of Papa, my greatest inspiration and the kindest soul on this earth.
October 16th was the day he passed--It was a long 3 weeks--I came back down to riverside to find my photo teacher had lost his brother a day earlier--we were both experiencing days, possibly weeks of loss and grief--
My step-grama Kathleen has made life a living hell for us. With their marriage of 4 years she thought she could go against his wishes and make him live on feeding tube. She just wanted him alive so she could spend more of the money he didn't have--the day he died she tried cashing in on his social security--she yelled at the drs and admitted to giving him some of her medicine (which could have potentially been the reason why he was admitted, but we will never know)--
My grandpa was always young at heart--until he married Kathleen--he aged faster in these past 3 years then i have ever seen--I remember seeing him over the summer and then seeing him at thanksgiving and noticing such a change in his appearance--a quick, physical deterioration, and slowly a mental one.
He was such a happy man--and despite his open heart surgeries, hip surgery--the pain he would experience he would always say "i feel great"---when we knew otherwise--I miss him very much. He didn't keep in good touch with us after Kathleen came along--almost cut us off completely at some points--we would see him on holidays but no other times--he wouldnt call--and would only spend 30 sec talking to us if we did--he became distant the last few years of his life--so very opposite of what our family life was like prior to his marriage to you know who--but all we had were memories--wonderful memories of the good times in the past--i still miss him making basketball shots from a half court away--or slipping me 20's whenever he would see us--or him teaching us how to dance...or just simply his laugh--
well this is an emotional blog--maybe i better leave it at this tnite--but I hope to come and vent about my days and new experiences--and be motivated to write.
yo soy numero uno pops!--always